so me and H toddled off saturday night to have dinner/get bombed with Marianne and Tony, some people we've met and become friendly with through BNI business type stuff.
all in all i had fun and it was a good laugh but both Tony and Marianne are in their mid fifties and it was like a vision into one potential future for me and H. weird...
basically, they have no kids, aren't married, Tony still smokes as if he were my age, Marianne makes H's ability to natter on like a loon seem frankly amateurish but still, i couldn't quite avoid the fact that i was basically getting battered with my parents. but getting battered my way, not my folks way...
oddness abounds in such situations and i couldn't help laughing at some of the blatant idiocy/hypocrisy on display at moments which really wasn't helping with the parental units comparisons.
example: tony has pretentions of hippydom and berates Marianne for driving a whacking great BMW about as it's (quote) "impractical and dirty", Tony himself, however, has a Porche... queue much biting of fists from me so i don't embarrass myself and/or H by pointing and laughing at the fool.
still, if all goes to plan he thinks i'm awesome so will be happy to use my services as in inventory clerk so teeth marks in the fist are, frankly, a small price to play for all the potential gains.
NB: i apologise for the rather direct writing here but attempting to pen abstract diatribes is a lot of effort, especially when you've been battered at the weekend and are actually trying to talk about something rather than nothing.
NB2: also, i don't care what you think so hence i retract the afore stated apology as i actually fully meant every word i said and FUCK YOU anyway.
NB3: i apologise for the previous comment. it was childish and uncalled for, it appears i'm developing some kind of split-bloginality syndrome.
NB4: FUCK OFF! I'M NOT SCHIZO, HE IS!
NB5: i apologise for my other personality and for his appalling use of shit old jokes. it's not his fault, he was touched by bad people in naughty places when he was a small child.
NB6: that wasn't me, that was the nasty one, he think's that it's clever to make paedo jokes. he's right, it is but none the less i still feel the need to distance myself from his actions.
*reins in his multiple personalities*
sorry about that, not entirely sure where i went there but apparently something still isn't balanced out quite right from when i was touched as a child...
NB7: right, i've had enough of this shit. that wasn't me, it was the angry one. i am now going to take the pair of them to task. no computer games for a MONTH you two! do you hear? honestly you try and raise your various psychological entities right to be ethical and intelligent and give them the best possible start in life and this is the sort of thanks you get. i mean really! i don't know why i bother sometimes for all the good it achieves. maybe it'd be different if i wasn't trying to do this by myself but it's not like you can ever trust anyone else to help you. mother always said i shouldn't trust him but why would i listen to her? oh no, i knew better and i'm paying for it now aren't i. well they'll learn their lessons before too long now i expect and when they do it'll be me there to pick up the pieces again, same as always with narry a word of thanks and no chance to gloat over being right all along. honestly who'd be a mother these days in a world that scorns respect and goodness to the point that it's considered abnormal to try and do the right thing, like there has to be an angle behind it. i blame the politicians myself. how are we supposed to live just, christian lives with them as examples, i ask you? all pious and baby kissing for the cameras but once their out of the office it's straight off to find a CRACK WHORE for the weekend. no doubt their wives are in much the same boat as me really, left holding the baby and trying to hold everything together. it just isn't fair that they think they can swan around behind our backs (and sometimes right under our noses), consequence free doing whatever they like but when they get caught out like they always do then you've got to stand there, hand in hand, the strong supportive wife furiously denying it all when you know it's all true and more so whilst the cameras flash and clamour for your response with the kids either trying to escape or hating him almost as much as you do. it sickens me sometimes, it really does.
NB8: jesus man, and the other two think i've got anger management issues... now we've got a bird in here n'all who can't work out if she's a single (possibly teenage) mum or married to a cheating politician!
right, seriously now. i'm calling a stop to this. all these different personalities're making me look like some kind of crazy person.
oh, wait a minute... awww crap... right then, who wants to get me committed to Cefn Coed and get the £40 then?
*fumes*
Monday, November 13, 2006
Monday, November 06, 2006
leprosy...? dear god man what did you get up to at the weekend?!
the best things in life are free,
but you keep them for the birds and bees!
i want CRACK WHORES!
that what i want!
y'see the glorious thing about a CRACK WHORE is that you always know exactly where you stand with them. geographically speaking that would of course normally be 'directly behind them with a short, sturdy length of rope' but that's not quite where i was going with this. no, i mean that you always know where you are with a CRACK WHORE as they'll always do whatever they can to get yer money off you, including slitting yer throat if it'll speed the process up at all (it is for this exact reason, in fact, that the government has recently started producing a new brochure for Doctors surgeries and Family Planning clinics entitled "CRACK WHORES: 'Protection' sometimes means more than just a hundred, thousand little reasons") giving them an almost reassuring sense of predictability.
unlike CRACK WHORES, however, so many things in this world are unclear. insubstantuality is a fear of mine, much like the reverse-parking although to a lesser degree, and yet i appear to be damned to vapidness for all my dark days in spite of myself.
one simple, clear action is required. just one.
well alright, there's no doubt an awful lot more than just one that is 'required' in any real sense but as i said so few sentences ago, vagueness is a curse and a means to an end in and of itself. do the ends justify those means, however...? fuck off, like i'd tell you you fucking CRACK WHORE double agent...
again, we appear to be getting nowhere fast.
is there a sure fire way to de-rail this unfortunate course of events? is a man truly in control of his own destiny? is slothenliness nature or nuture?
in other words, can i blame all this on my mother? and if not, why not...!?!
in parting: wear shoes in all instances seen as appropriate and at least 50% of those considered less so and you will almost unerringly avoid stubbing your toe. this is crucial in avoiding groinal strains in later life, though only three doctors in the entire world claim to know why and none of them are making with the answers, the goddamned elitist bastards... Danny? pass me the secerteurs please, i'm gonna have another nice, friendly little 'chat' with my hypocratically-if-much-in-need-of-being-taken-down-a-peg-or-two minded friend here...
p.s: CRACK WHORES are awesome. OMGGZZZ LIK THEYR SOOOOOOO HOT INNIT!!!!!11!!1!!!!1111!!I LUVZ EM I DOS ROFLOLMAOBRBH+KXXXXXXXX11!!!!!!!!1!!111!!!!1
but you keep them for the birds and bees!
i want CRACK WHORES!
that what i want!
y'see the glorious thing about a CRACK WHORE is that you always know exactly where you stand with them. geographically speaking that would of course normally be 'directly behind them with a short, sturdy length of rope' but that's not quite where i was going with this. no, i mean that you always know where you are with a CRACK WHORE as they'll always do whatever they can to get yer money off you, including slitting yer throat if it'll speed the process up at all (it is for this exact reason, in fact, that the government has recently started producing a new brochure for Doctors surgeries and Family Planning clinics entitled "CRACK WHORES: 'Protection' sometimes means more than just a hundred, thousand little reasons") giving them an almost reassuring sense of predictability.
unlike CRACK WHORES, however, so many things in this world are unclear. insubstantuality is a fear of mine, much like the reverse-parking although to a lesser degree, and yet i appear to be damned to vapidness for all my dark days in spite of myself.
one simple, clear action is required. just one.
well alright, there's no doubt an awful lot more than just one that is 'required' in any real sense but as i said so few sentences ago, vagueness is a curse and a means to an end in and of itself. do the ends justify those means, however...? fuck off, like i'd tell you you fucking CRACK WHORE double agent...
again, we appear to be getting nowhere fast.
is there a sure fire way to de-rail this unfortunate course of events? is a man truly in control of his own destiny? is slothenliness nature or nuture?
in other words, can i blame all this on my mother? and if not, why not...!?!
in parting: wear shoes in all instances seen as appropriate and at least 50% of those considered less so and you will almost unerringly avoid stubbing your toe. this is crucial in avoiding groinal strains in later life, though only three doctors in the entire world claim to know why and none of them are making with the answers, the goddamned elitist bastards... Danny? pass me the secerteurs please, i'm gonna have another nice, friendly little 'chat' with my hypocratically-if-much-in-need-of-being-taken-down-a-peg-or-two minded friend here...
p.s: CRACK WHORES are awesome. OMGGZZZ LIK THEYR SOOOOOOO HOT INNIT!!!!!11!!1!!!!1111!!I LUVZ EM I DOS ROFLOLMAOBRBH+KXXXXXXXX11!!!!!!!!1!!111!!!!1
Friday, November 03, 2006
an elaborate rouse...? are you sure that's spelt right...?
elderflowers are not as innocent as they at first seem.
i have decided, in fact, that all flowers are less than trustworthy. i cannot necessarily explain my reasoning for this but none the less, the statement stands true above all else i have learned in my reasonably long and innefficient lifetime.
this almost undoubtedly means i should take more time to interact with the outside world, preferably without the use of a cathode ray tube to aid perception but then, really... does the outside world deserve the effort?
walking to my place of 'gainful' employment this morning i was deluged by various subtle but none the less calculated and spiteful intimations that frankly, as far as the world's concerned, we built our sodding houses and we should bloody well stay in them!
consider the evidence, if you will:
1. it's fucking freezing out there at the moment.
2. no really, it's actually got huge frost on cars and plants and everything!
3. at one point on my journey, brambles have grown up over a fence next to the pavement and hang at perfect face-scarring/eye-gouging level and no matter what the council do they just keep on growing back!
4. there is no plumbing.
5. it often rains.
6. the tea and coffee making facilities leave a lot to be desired...
...i could go on but i feel i've created a bullet-proof arguement. do you really require further convincing, Gentle Reader, that our planet quite clearly despises us and makes no qualms in showing us this antipathy? don't get me wrong, we probably deserve it after the rather unconsiderate way we've behaved but will the planet not conceed that whilst we may have damaged it so severely, is the appliance of science not a worthy cause and should the environment not be willing to pay the price for our rather overly-curious natures? damn it planet this isn't some frivolous time wasting activity like having political opinions or attempting to be a morally virtuous person, THIS IS FUCKING CHEMISTRY TYPE STUFF!
discuss.
you cunts.
i have decided, in fact, that all flowers are less than trustworthy. i cannot necessarily explain my reasoning for this but none the less, the statement stands true above all else i have learned in my reasonably long and innefficient lifetime.
this almost undoubtedly means i should take more time to interact with the outside world, preferably without the use of a cathode ray tube to aid perception but then, really... does the outside world deserve the effort?
walking to my place of 'gainful' employment this morning i was deluged by various subtle but none the less calculated and spiteful intimations that frankly, as far as the world's concerned, we built our sodding houses and we should bloody well stay in them!
consider the evidence, if you will:
1. it's fucking freezing out there at the moment.
2. no really, it's actually got huge frost on cars and plants and everything!
3. at one point on my journey, brambles have grown up over a fence next to the pavement and hang at perfect face-scarring/eye-gouging level and no matter what the council do they just keep on growing back!
4. there is no plumbing.
5. it often rains.
6. the tea and coffee making facilities leave a lot to be desired...
...i could go on but i feel i've created a bullet-proof arguement. do you really require further convincing, Gentle Reader, that our planet quite clearly despises us and makes no qualms in showing us this antipathy? don't get me wrong, we probably deserve it after the rather unconsiderate way we've behaved but will the planet not conceed that whilst we may have damaged it so severely, is the appliance of science not a worthy cause and should the environment not be willing to pay the price for our rather overly-curious natures? damn it planet this isn't some frivolous time wasting activity like having political opinions or attempting to be a morally virtuous person, THIS IS FUCKING CHEMISTRY TYPE STUFF!
discuss.
you cunts.
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
the end of abstraction (or: how a call centre killed my imagination)
man seriously, i'm sat here in work, bored to tears. i can actually feel what little intellect i have left after so many years of neglect and abuse slowly ebbing away and my feelings on the matter are much like a coma victims feelings toward his feet; they're still there, more or less, he just can't really do anything with them all that much.
that's right, slowly but surely my mind is becoming null and void and i feel no urge to display anything other than ambivalence toward the fact.
this scares me slightly but at the same time i wonder if this would be some strange kind of release to have my grey matter leak from my head in a horrifying if aesthetically pleasing fashion via any convenient orifice. so wrong and yet feeling so right and involving orifices... sounds like kiddie porn, Mr Glitter... perhaps you'd like to follow us...?
perhaps not, however...
i ask only this of you, gentle Reader: do not judge me as a man but rather as the beast i truly am, languid and sullen here in my telephonic cave. capable of crushing the skull of any rival with my bare hands if only i could somehow find the energy.
i enjoy a short whimsy that customers are like wolves or some other pack hunter, constantly lurking, ready to spring and rip throats and hamstrings and line rental discounts at the slightest show of weakness. then i realise this is farcical as the average wolf would undoubtedly best any of our customers in a battle of wills with barely a strenuous conceptualisation. no doubt the wolf would be in possession of a firmer grasp of the english language than the average customer as well...
indeed, as i understand it, wolves are actually impeccably polite creatures on the whole with an unchallengeable sense of punctuality. they are never mean nor unnecessarily brutish beyond time spent 'on the job' and even then many animals have been heard to comment that their death was handled with compassion and all due diligence. how reliable dead animals are as a source of character judgement is, however, still entirely unproven as of this time.
one day soon i shall return. when i do, duck and cower under your desk you curr... it may just save your worthless hide...
that's right, slowly but surely my mind is becoming null and void and i feel no urge to display anything other than ambivalence toward the fact.
this scares me slightly but at the same time i wonder if this would be some strange kind of release to have my grey matter leak from my head in a horrifying if aesthetically pleasing fashion via any convenient orifice. so wrong and yet feeling so right and involving orifices... sounds like kiddie porn, Mr Glitter... perhaps you'd like to follow us...?
perhaps not, however...
i ask only this of you, gentle Reader: do not judge me as a man but rather as the beast i truly am, languid and sullen here in my telephonic cave. capable of crushing the skull of any rival with my bare hands if only i could somehow find the energy.
i enjoy a short whimsy that customers are like wolves or some other pack hunter, constantly lurking, ready to spring and rip throats and hamstrings and line rental discounts at the slightest show of weakness. then i realise this is farcical as the average wolf would undoubtedly best any of our customers in a battle of wills with barely a strenuous conceptualisation. no doubt the wolf would be in possession of a firmer grasp of the english language than the average customer as well...
indeed, as i understand it, wolves are actually impeccably polite creatures on the whole with an unchallengeable sense of punctuality. they are never mean nor unnecessarily brutish beyond time spent 'on the job' and even then many animals have been heard to comment that their death was handled with compassion and all due diligence. how reliable dead animals are as a source of character judgement is, however, still entirely unproven as of this time.
one day soon i shall return. when i do, duck and cower under your desk you curr... it may just save your worthless hide...
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
i believe the appropriate terminology is "n00b"...?
evenin' all.
so anyway, i'm new to this 'ere blogging lark with the exception of the odd rant on the good ol' Spazz so i'm not really sure where this'll go (if anywhere) but hey-ho (as The Ramones would've said), let's go...
a short introduction:
grinderno1 was born under the suitably bland categorization of 'British (White)' and has maintained this as the status quo with a dogged persistence ever since with the exception of two entirely separate and arguably rather ill advised 'Negro' phases of which, to this day, he is still deeply embarrassed and apologetic for. well, he apologises for the first instance as this was entirely accidental and in poor taste. the second, however, was intricately pre-planned and utterly hilarious to him and henceforth is still a source of great pride.
considered almost dangerously intelligent from a very early age he then proceeded to utterly disappoint all expectations by proving to be of actually slightly less than average intellect and has proven to be of almost zero worth to the general public at large. some people maintain the idea that this is merely an act, to fool the masses into a false sense of security before he lands his killer blow, raising himself to the godlike status he so clearly deserves and casting all into a life of slavery and devotion as befitting those who could ever doubt him. grinderno1 himself is not one of these people...
a happy if humble childhood spent running free in the wastelands and forests of this, our green and lascivious land was followed by an unpleasant and angry adolescence which (whilst painful for all concerned at the time) would eventually prove to be exactly the grounding he required when he entered (and subsequently won) the prestigious Worlds Biggest Cunt competition in late march 2002, hosted in the lavish surroundings of The Hoof and Garter pub in Greenwich. indeed, to this day, he is the only non-French entrant to make it past the semi-finals... it was also during this nightmarish teen hood that he would be introduced to the glory that is a guitar amp with the gain turned up to 10. this is very important and we will return to this later. please feel free to take notes if you wish as there will be a pop-test at the end.
an unfortunate zepellining (go on then, you spell it!) accident in his mid-twenties would temporarily rob him of his sight, leading to a state of incredibly over-sensitized spatial awareness that had been entirely beyond him before the accident. this state was, however, only temporary and his sight was almost entirely restored shortly after a brief stint in hospital. the entire situation only had two consequences: an abject inability to capitalise correctly and an unreasonable fear of reverse-parking. to this day he will still not discuss anything to do with the accident or it's lasting repercussions although many believe that this is simply him 'milking it a bit more than it's worth'.
now in his late twenties, grinderno1 has seen many things in his lifetime although he has achieved surprisingly few. he is inordinately proud of his abject lack of activity although some people again believe this is all part of his ploy. grinderno1 is one of these people although only as he feels he should want to believe in something intangible and refuses to take the populist option of believing in a distant yet omnipotent father figure who's only real claim to superiority is that he can make a throne balance on a cloud.
more to follow. there is no quiz.
if you believe the above, you just failed the quiz. apparently there wasn't a spoon either and the daft fucker still ended up getting himself offed by the dude in the suit, tart...
so anyway, i'm new to this 'ere blogging lark with the exception of the odd rant on the good ol' Spazz so i'm not really sure where this'll go (if anywhere) but hey-ho (as The Ramones would've said), let's go...
a short introduction:
grinderno1 was born under the suitably bland categorization of 'British (White)' and has maintained this as the status quo with a dogged persistence ever since with the exception of two entirely separate and arguably rather ill advised 'Negro' phases of which, to this day, he is still deeply embarrassed and apologetic for. well, he apologises for the first instance as this was entirely accidental and in poor taste. the second, however, was intricately pre-planned and utterly hilarious to him and henceforth is still a source of great pride.
considered almost dangerously intelligent from a very early age he then proceeded to utterly disappoint all expectations by proving to be of actually slightly less than average intellect and has proven to be of almost zero worth to the general public at large. some people maintain the idea that this is merely an act, to fool the masses into a false sense of security before he lands his killer blow, raising himself to the godlike status he so clearly deserves and casting all into a life of slavery and devotion as befitting those who could ever doubt him. grinderno1 himself is not one of these people...
a happy if humble childhood spent running free in the wastelands and forests of this, our green and lascivious land was followed by an unpleasant and angry adolescence which (whilst painful for all concerned at the time) would eventually prove to be exactly the grounding he required when he entered (and subsequently won) the prestigious Worlds Biggest Cunt competition in late march 2002, hosted in the lavish surroundings of The Hoof and Garter pub in Greenwich. indeed, to this day, he is the only non-French entrant to make it past the semi-finals... it was also during this nightmarish teen hood that he would be introduced to the glory that is a guitar amp with the gain turned up to 10. this is very important and we will return to this later. please feel free to take notes if you wish as there will be a pop-test at the end.
an unfortunate zepellining (go on then, you spell it!) accident in his mid-twenties would temporarily rob him of his sight, leading to a state of incredibly over-sensitized spatial awareness that had been entirely beyond him before the accident. this state was, however, only temporary and his sight was almost entirely restored shortly after a brief stint in hospital. the entire situation only had two consequences: an abject inability to capitalise correctly and an unreasonable fear of reverse-parking. to this day he will still not discuss anything to do with the accident or it's lasting repercussions although many believe that this is simply him 'milking it a bit more than it's worth'.
now in his late twenties, grinderno1 has seen many things in his lifetime although he has achieved surprisingly few. he is inordinately proud of his abject lack of activity although some people again believe this is all part of his ploy. grinderno1 is one of these people although only as he feels he should want to believe in something intangible and refuses to take the populist option of believing in a distant yet omnipotent father figure who's only real claim to superiority is that he can make a throne balance on a cloud.
more to follow. there is no quiz.
if you believe the above, you just failed the quiz. apparently there wasn't a spoon either and the daft fucker still ended up getting himself offed by the dude in the suit, tart...
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